I am writing this for you.
For any person who’s ever looked into the future and saw a life that wasn’t worth living.
For anyone who looked at the society that they were raised in and thought that it was fucked up to such an extent that nobody would ever be able to fix it.
For all those out there who don’t feel like they have anyone who really, truly, honestly loves them, or even that they aren’t deserving of any future love they might receive.
I am speaking to you.
And if you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself tonight, or an excuse to extend your life even by one more day, please accept this as it. If no one else will say these words to you tonight, then please, hear them from me. Please.
I want you to know that I love you. And I know how hollow that sounds, coming from a stranger on the internet, but I do. I love you so much, and all I want to do is spread my arms wide and take in every person who’s ever been hurt and I want to help you. I want to be your shoulder to cry on, or your solid ground to build yourself back up if that’s what you need.
I want you to know that you’re not alone, not even when you’re sitting in an empty room wondering what the point is, because all around the world, there are millions of people doing the same thing. Some of them will make it. Some of them will grow older and they’ll fall in love and they’ll discover new passions and they’ll travel and they’ll feel the sun on their face again. Some of them won’t. And I just want to make sure that you aren’t going to be one of the ones who won’t.
I want you to know that you are worthwhile. You are important. Even when you feel like you aren’t, you are. Because you are the only you that is ever going to exist. You are the only one who will ever fill your slot in the world. You are the only person built out of your personal traits, your personal abilities, likes, dislikes, thoughts, feelings, and nobody else will be quite like you. You are unique. You are an endangered species. And when I tell you not to kill yourself tonight, I’m not saying it because I feel bad for your loved ones. Though they will certainly miss you, they aren’t the only or even the most important reason for why you should stay. You should stay because you are important, and you won’t ever exist again.
And I want you to know that you should stay because you deserve to stay. Maybe things won’t get better, I don’t know and neither do you. But pain can be dealt with. Eventually, it might even become background noise, just a small, unpleasant side to your otherwise happy life. But in the meantime, you deserve to know what all you can do. You deserve to know how far you can go in that passion of yours. You deserve to know what changes are awaiting you in your future. You deserve to meet all those wonderful people you are going to meet, and to experience all those wonderful experiences that are awaiting you. It won’t all be happy, and some of it might even be scary, but I can promise you that someday, you will look back and be glad that you decided to keep living. Because it is worth it and it is what you deserve.
I don’t know what exactly you’re going through and I can’t pretend to, but I do know that you are loved, and you are uniquely beautiful, and you deserve to push forward and be happy. I want you to know that. So, please, don’t give up. For the sake of your friends and family, for my sake, but most importantly, for your own sake.